Mujhe yaad na kerna

Mujhe yaad na kerna

Karo toh koi fariyaad na kerna.

Zehmat e yaad hai teri

Jho baaraha chali aati hai.

Simti hui zaat ko meri, Phir se

Bikher ker chali jaati hai.

Kuch tinke, hawaaon se mil ker

Ger tumhe chu jaaye.

Toh Mujhe yaad na kerna.

Karo toh koi fariyaad na kerna.

Zehmat e yaad hai teri ,

Jho apna rasta bhool jaati hai.

Meri palkhon ki aad me ,

Apni raat tamaam ker jaati hai.

Ashkon se bhari bheegi hawa,

Banker Agar Meri Khushbu aaye,

Toh Mujhe yaad na kerna.

Karo toh koi fariyaad na kerna.

Zehmat e yaad hai teri.

Jho mere seene se lipat jaati hai.

Apni bahon se kus ti hui,

Mere dil ko nichor jaati hai.

Ab bus apni yaadon se kahon

Ke ab Aur zehmat na kerna .

Agar Mein Kuch ker jaao

Toh koi fariyaad na kerna.

I DIED TOdAY (30 may)

It’s 30th may. It’s how they say.
I died today.
I failed prodigiously on this day.
With my soul to this day I pay.

It’s 30th may.
I died today.

My living body, my breathing Carcass
Celebrates my death anniversary today.
I raise a glass to drink for soberness,
As myself dies an agonising death today.

Its 30th may.
I lost you today,,,,,I lost me today.
Not just the end of the month,
But end of us and the end of me today.

It’s the day of bleeding tears I shed.
Quietly sunk my face in my bed.
Not a hiss of sound are allowed to escape.
Containing the turbulence in my head.

Please forgive me I begged today.
On my knees where I continued to stay.
Keeping all the sentiments a bay.
You just abandoned me today.

It’s 30th may
I died today.

Post this day, the days pass in months.
My gathered self takes the form to attain.
The time breaths some life in my guts.
But when this day arrives, I just die again.

With you not close to me and not near.
Death comes to me every year.
Every year I collect my self with the rains.
But when this day arrives, I just die again.

Wishes

It’s your wishes that I wish are born today. 
Even before you finish wishing them out. 
May your wishes breath with life today. 
Even before you breath them out. 

Every moment in this day I seize. 
Just to bow my head and rest on my knees. 
To wish for your wishes to spread their wings. 
And fly you out of all your sufferings. 

My wishes that are due to come true today, 
Should come true as your wish on your birthday. 
How I wish I couldn’t elaborate. 
Just Hope you have enough success, 
that atleast this year you celebrate.  

In this day, between sun rise and sun set. 
Every thing that is been coveted by you. 
And Between this sun set and rise, 
Your aspirations are fulfilled, before you even knew. 

So much and So long

I have loved you so much 
And have loved you for so long. 
That I don’t know what it feels like . 
Not to love you any more. 

I have thought of you,  
So much and for so long 
That I don’t know, what it feels like , 
Not to think of you any more. 

I don’t know what it feels like, 
Not to sleep with you in my head. 
And I wouldn’t know what it feels like, 
For the life I live, and till I am dead. 

I do not know any more, what it feels like, 
To not have you as my 1st thought 
When I wake up,  
And will never know,  
not even when I break up. 

If The feeling of remembering you, 
Is gone, it’s vanished. 
If not remembering you, is the only acceptance. 
Then I wanna be discarded and banished. 

If my eyes looses it light, 
And banned from it visual power. 
I’ll still efficiently see you, 
Though it would be my darkest hour. 

I have started to love my love for you, 
The feeling that I own is owned by so few. 
I have loved to love you, so much, for so long. 
That My poems to me ,they don’t belong. 

A silent part of me, a pumping part of me. 
Will always be waiting for you. 
An unheard voice buried inside me. 
Will always be calling for you.  

Cuz I have loved you so much 
And I have loved you for so long. 
That I don’t know what it feel like, 
Not to love you any more.  

Not that am crying

The silence on my lips,
Break into words that slips.
Your name swiftly makes its way.
Yet again on my tongue as I say.

Your mention went on for a lil long.
May be not as long as deep it was.
The feelings started to felt so strong.
Like a turbulent wave it rose.

My brain dose not stop generating your thoughts
My heart dose not stop churning your feel.
My veins dose not stop feeding you in it.
My premitive wounds re open to unheal.

Shelling tears roll down the frozen face
Not that I am crying.
Disobedient to my un absorbent eyes.
But definitely not that I am crying.

Leaking eye lashes, I keep wiping
not that am crying.
My choking throat ,Gulps in melancholy.
But absolute not that am crying.

The twitching pain in the chest,
Nonchalantly escalates the sensation.
Sentiments are high on painful fest.
Relentlessly in Pursuit for redemption.

The fluid flows effortlessly by default
Not that am crying.
Absurdly trying to camouflage the liquid salt.
But decisively I am not crying.

Just like the person can yet cry,
Without the tears left unshed.
I choose not to cry, regardless
these sliding streaks of moisture are bled.

So bleeding out agony in tears.
Not that am crying.
Not even slightest efforts to sob.
Most assuredly I am not even trying.

Unlatched soul

My soulless body lies with a lifeless glare.
Conceals and confines the pain I bare.
It’s hard to keep my soul latched to me,
When you my soul keeper aren’t there.

It cares not for my physical being,
Just leaves me in flesh and bones unseen.
Abandoning me while it’s still anchored,
Bruised, emotional casualties it suffered.

Since the time of your departure,
My spirit wondered out of my structure.
Drifting in every direction of your being.
Leaving me empty, I doubt it’s even seeing

Wanting to know how you are,
When the weight of time sheds off,
Relentlessly seeking you, wondered so far
Brings me back the traces of how you are.

It’s hard to decide what do I miss more.
It’s you or my ever wondering soul.
That refuses to reside back in me.
That refuses to fill the emptiness in me.

It’s hard to decide, it’s hard to elect.
for loosing whom should I regret?
You? That chose me to reject.
Or my soul? that I cannot recollect.

The emptiness in me, the void in me.
Is carved in an exact shape of you,
Whom should I seek to replenish it with?
Nothing could ever fit in, but you.

This empty void space in me ,
Remains sealed but unfulfilled.
Every desire drenched in its darkeness,
Is brutally suffocated and killed.

Contrast Emotions

During the chills of December,
In my head and in my heart I remember.
The very 1st igniting touch of our skin’s.
Sprinkling fuel to the fictitious breathings.

The twinkles escaping through your unshut lashes
Glaring at me like the lightning flashes.
Your body responding to my sliding touch.
It collides us closer ,that simmers and shivers so much.

The tangled lips do not wish to be untangled.
The winding arms around do not wish to unwind.
The merging breath dose not seem to unmerge.
Ever progressing kiss just takes us deeper to submerge.

Could I suffer and suffer ever more,
Wanting the pain in wounds so sour.
The unquenched desires of us in rain.
Never made it to monsoons and never will again.

Every descending drop scars my soul.
Drenched in agony, the pain takes the tole.
Liquified sorrow drips from all over me.
Soaked in your memories, I am meant to be.

Another storm rises in my head.
Keeps me awake and falls in my bed.
Clouds of eyes pours a dissimilar rain.
Starting with your musings, water cycle repeats again.

Moon to my heart’s ocean

The ocean of my heart,
behaves towards you like it’s moon.
The load of emotions shifts in waves,
forming a chaotic typhoon.

The distance from you determines my heart’s instability,
Being close to you seems the least probability.

The Unstable surface holds allot within,
under your blissful reflection.
The very gaze at you swirls in me ,
with allot of affection.

A tidal wave rises, bringing the message
of your unknown nearing presence.
The moisture from the splashing waves,
delivers your familiar essence.

In the turbulence of your absence,
My heart remains in an unsettled commotion.
The ambience of your musings shimmers,
Upon me as the Moon to my hearts ocean.

The unsilent crashing of emotional waves,
Is heard through the spilling retinal caves.
Beholds the approaching sentimental rage
,unleashed in words on the blank page.

Your surreal appearance,
sets my universe in motion.
The only clarity in my gaze is you.
Rest of the world is in distortion.

I Am more than prepared ,
to live in your illusion.
Until my pulse stops to feed your musings.
You’ll continue to be the moon to my hearts ocean.

Feel good

Would it make you feel good.
Feel good like you should.
May be to know it’s a little odd.
To some one you are the god.

You posses the ultimate power,
To nurture the heart and devour
To turn the sleepless nights grim,
Into a soul stirring dream.

To shape the night of love and care,
Into a sleepless dark ambiance to stare.
To nurture the feeling of your love in me.
And to abandon that adolescent love free.

So feel good like you should
To know that your musings are like food.
It hungers my soul the moment I wake up.
Feeds on your thoughts until I breakup.

I think of you
In the rippling folds of my bed sheets.
I think of you.
As my soul’s, my mind’s and my body’s needs.

I thinking of you
As the sun burns on my skin this month.
I think of you
As the Salty fluid rolls down my cheeks this month.

I think of you
As an unrelieved sigh this month.
I think of you
As I prepare to again die this month.

So feel good
And feel good like you should.
If to know that I think of you,
In my very breath and every pumping beat that I could.

Drowned

I am so drowned into you.

Shutting out the reality on the surface ,
I am so drowned into you.
Unfeeling the insignificant sounds in air.
I am so drowned into you.

You embrace me like the water pressure.
A tight loving hug one can’t measure.
Every attribute of me can feel you around.
The gushes of your musings are inbound.

I am relieved of all my remorse and fear.
Breathing you as my new atmosphere.
Emerging out of you makes me choke.
Giving the feeling that can’t be spoke.

If that’s what’s its like, I’d rather remain drowned
Where I choose to swirl under the fluid ground.
And remain there until my time is due.
This is how I am so drowned into you.